goodbye robert

Next, I just felt like it was time to move on from this. I was being ridiculed and looking like the fool, his heart in my hand and the blood of all the mistakes I had made against him before my eyes. I ran up to my room and cried. I felt alone, abandoned and secluded from him and his life! But for now, let me take you back to the first time in which he was to find out that I loved him, I was sorry but still not ready to date him. I saw him one day in the same coffee shop where we met in Edmonton, he was staring at me as he usually does. This was subsequently happening after meeting him on the bus. I knew I had to keep it together, act cool and not do anything drastic so I simply went up to him. I couldn’t believe I was standing in his presence, having a conversation with him as we talked about an upcoming book contest that was happening for Canada Reads. Now I had always thought he was prestigious, having lots of things I don't have, going into medicine and looking as handsome as ever! So I was surprised when he asked me about the contest as though he knew nothing about it! “So what is that?” he asks. I answered, “oh, its just a book contest and they review the books, determining who wins. It's nice that it's Canadian.” That led into talking about other things that I really like to do around the city, and the next thing I brought up was that I wanted to get some musical theatre experience there in Edmonton. He asked me to sit down for a bit. I was about to have a very integral conversation about what would be happening now. “Sarah, Im leaving for a bit.” “Oh”. At this time, I didn’t expect this because I was all wrapped up in how amazing it felt to be near him, to experience life with him – it felt so good! “ya, im taking off so I can clear my head for a bit!” “Oh? Is everything okay?! What are you clearing your head of?” “Well- I’m going off with a…” We would never finish the conversation. He would “take off and clear his head,” I thought. I was so nervous to hear of WHAT WAS GOING TO COME NEXT. “A girl? So there was a possible chance that I was being rejected?!” I thought in my head. Gulp. Bad sigh. The phone rang at that last moment and he said goodbye. I was so confused, I didn’t know everything! I left right away of embarrassment. But my fight was not over. I had every bit of faith that this was going to turn around. Not because of me but because I know he loves me and there was a purpose in all of this. I told myself I wouldn’t cry over another man but this one was different. We have a destiny connection, one that will join us together and any opposition will not prevail!