robbie2

One day we walked passed each other and stopped to talk. The first conversation felt genuine, interested, and he was always looking at me. How could I say no? He asked about how things were going and I answered back very decidedly that I was just focusing and trying to improve the best that I can! We talked about what he likes to do, play cricket and how I just spend my weekends at the coffee shop with Mel. Like normal adults talking about how life is right now. Somewhere in this narrative of which we were talking, I liked his life and he liked mine! That’s when in a heavenly and almost impossible way, I knew that I was falling for him and wanted him. I didn’t know how I could have these feelings for someone I just met. My thoughts were I just met you, and I was thinking to myself I need to pray about this and not want to go so fast. But more importantly, I was standing in front of the most amazing man I had ever met. Those kinds of feelings are okay. You’re in love, for me. You’re doubting, wondering, loving, desiring, wanting and receiving (as for me) all at the same time, and it can go differently for every woman, but for me, I had some experiences along the way that taught me love came with doubts. Anyway, where was I, I was experiencing the love of a lifetime. As much as I loved him then, I loved him now even more. My love had now catapulted its way through our small interactions before the note and now we had finished our date. The love I had for him is eternal because throughout all these experiences, I still felt the same. One day I went to see him in his office. Another lady was just leaving. So I walked in. Straight away he said "have a seat." That was the most welcomed and intimate I felt with him... because he made a decision to include me in his life. I felt absolutely wanted, deliberately pursued and wonderfully accepted. Some people looking into this conversation, may say he’s just trying to be nice. But I beg to differ. He didn’t ask the other lady to sit down, he asked me and that makes me feel super special. I loved that about him! We talked maybe ten minutes as I was on my break, and as he was looking in my eyes, and I in his, we clicked. Because we spoke the same language, the same life, we were on the same path and we both said yes! No one can break a connection. How could I want anymore? There’s nothing for me to want. I don't know much about the soul. But I know that that was one of the days that got me saying, gosh, please don’t let him be taken, he’s absolutely wonderful.