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John and sheryl decide to get married and so they get engaged -they decide to inform their friends and settle in their house -they throw a big party for the “newly to wed” couple but Sheryl has doubts because there is a baby in her life -John can’t believe she hid this from him for years of dating And now engagement (idk why men take this so seriously) The engagement -there are many influences in their lives for good relationships so Reveal who these persons are -these are two people who have waited A LONG TIME to get engaged To be sure this is what they want -he has never been the wavering type with Sheryl, Sheryl has always rather been having doubts and she has such a history with other men too before him -friends have always supported their relationship The baby -I guess it doesn’t matter to John what relationship she had since he Was not in the picture of their lives yet -Sheryl knew a guy in high school that loved her obviously -in high school, everyone is dating, and If not, youre not cool and at the school prom after-party Everything went down from there, if you know what I mean -this will include themes such as betrayal of self, growing up and making decisions as an adult All I can say about the hero(ine) is that it’s a tight game of who can overcome their fears and accomplish something maybe overcome emotionally first/most due to what society has set as a true human endeavour; whether the book will address a new challenge to overcome im not quite certain, because this will set a precedent on how things should be done differerently in societal relationships

the book store

March 31, 2020 @ 130 pm So when he walked up to me one day when I was working at the bookstore, I could not have been prepared for what was to come. I thought that he was very calm and collected and ready for what he was going to face that day. He carried himself like he knew what he wanted and he was going after it. I simply feel this way because he’s a tall man and he walks with purpose and dignity. I was working at the front desk of the store and there he was, right there before me, as though nothing would stop him and as though nothing would stop me, a force, a power and a romantic feeling that could not be stopped. Why do I say such things when I hadn’t even talked to him in years, how could I know the reality of the situation as opposed to a situation that did not exist. It was as if heaven was right there bringing me everything i ever desired. He was dressed in a green sweater, which I got to say looked heavenly on him as in everything he ever wore. Im literally standing there going, “please come to my till, please come to my till!” I remember it like it was yesterday, as though all the times I thought of my list of things that I wanted in my husband, was standing right before my very eyes. “How are you doing today I would say? He would ask me the same. I kept thinking of what else to ask him, as my hands were shaking and I was running out of reasons to keep him here for any longer, so I said, “would you like a bag for that?” since this is what the store management was asking us to say and I got to say it was a brilliant closing remark of this amazing encounter. A smile goes a long way and so that was the very last thing that happened between us. I would think nothing of this episode of meeting John as boring, uneventful and dull. It is not much for sure, but it brought so much joy to have this young man standing before me, in my life. Handsome, pleasantly faced and without spot or wrinkle. “Thank you Lord for bringing this man into my life” was my only closing thought as he left with the bag in hand and though not a smile, a look of being pleasant was all over his face. What I would take home that day was a feeling of absolute love. You know that feeling when you meet the man of your dreams and he has just swept you off your feet and you are descending onto your bed with the biggest smile. Then comes the sigh of relief that all your dreams have unravelled before you and you have just been taken on a time machine to the time when you fell in love. That was our moment and this is the time machine moment that I am talking about here and now.

John and sheryl decide to get married and so they get engaged -they decide to inform their friends and settle in their house Their parents did not have an issue with them getting married -they have an aunt on her side that disagrees with the match and they think this is because her daughter has a history with dating him -this makes it immoral for Sheryl to get engaged and marry him In sheryl’s dating history, she met a man at the same time that john came along -he was in the same education career but john was pursuing medicine -another woman was also in love with the man also wanting Sheryl The problem is that Sheryl has a baby that John never knew about at the engagement -can he get over the betrayal? -will he accept the baby into their lives? -when did this happen and is this worth it for him? -her concerns are that he won’t accept -he’s concerned about why she did this (and will she behave like this again in another scenario) -but he is faulted for bringing on the engagement so soon -was she suppose to tell him as he brought on the proposal to stop? -I think these are very valid concerns in a relationship That both sides should have in a circumstance like this These are other concerns and details in the novel: -talking about her parents and the aunt -how did they meet, more revelations of this -if they met in Edmonton, what are some of the details that led to a struggling Relationship? (John’s love interest, the baby and truthfulness, loyalty issues) -perhaps a family member other than the aunt had a bad experience and are influencing concerns of marriage to john -this is a very controversial marriage in the novel, details that lead to this

the proposal

March 27, 2020 @ 115 pm So he came running to me one day saying where he was going and I finally felt like I was singing in his arms. He had one coat in hand and his luggage in the other as we sat down to have something to eat at the airport. (I took his jacket for him as we both looked at each other with the kiss of gratitude, love and passion.) “How did we ever do this past years without each other” I said with a tear rolling down my eye which he cleaned up for me” “I know” said he, “but here we are and it was worth the wait.” “You always say this, John, but I am always wondering how we could have let the time pass for so long, I mean was that worth it?” Gulp, went John. “Yes, it is worth it. It will be worth it after this. There it was, as I lifted his jacket to give to him, he said, “Can you feel anything in there? Can you grab it please, I need it?” And so that is what I did, as I looked I could see a jewellery container and that was exactly what it was. So, he asked me to pass it and soon enough he was opening it and there it was and there was he, leaning on one knee. “Will you marry me?” was the obvious, expected response, not without wrinkle, not without sincere passion for the love that he had for me due to the tone of his voice, the look of sincerity on his face, as I said “Yes, remarkably yes!” And that was that. We were engaged and the World was in shock as we were walking through the airport to get coffee and a muffin and out the doors as the first time which we would hold hands, kiss and be seen as the couple we always wanted to be. March 28, 2020 @ 9:43 am So John and I sat down for coffee. We put down his luggage and coat, where I had felt the ring and gave it to him. “What are we going to do now that we’re engaged,” we only had plans to go home and get him settled in. I had all these plans meeting people, like his family and some of our friends, Edmonton was a place we met, made our dreams reality by getting to know each other, pursuing our careers and school needs. How was I to know what would happen next. So he said to me, “I’m not in a rush to do anything except that family and friends are itching to know what we are up to because they know when I arrived, so should we tell them, I can email and text them and we can leave it at that for now because I just got in and I want to spend every waking moment with my fiancé, my wife!” “and what should we tell them about the engagement, when our wedding will be, all these things they are going to be asking us?” “We can tell them about our lives together and as wonderful as it is and what it is” “What do you mean, what it is, typical male response, that gives me hardly anything to work with” “Honey, just say that we’re engaged” “Okay, then, we can tell them that!” And off they went sipping their drinks and eating their muffins because they were as happy as can be and as looking forward to the future as any other could be.

As he was sitting there he did not know that I had him on my mind for I never show my feelings that the the little things like him being on a phone did not grab my attention. He had a baseball cap on which i love, talking on the phone to someone and you know what every girl would be doing, seeing him in front of them, wondering who is he talking to? is it a girl? And who is she? Is she a girl from his part or a friend? Are they a past relationship and is being rekindled? Then a girl would start doubting herself. Why am I doing this? Should I leave him out of his life altogether? But he keeps looking at me so what does that mean? I didn’t do much that day. He really wasn’t making any advances that day toward me so why should do anything? But then he passed me one day. He was wearing this bubble jacket and he passed me just as I had hoped and called my name, staring right at me. “How are you Sarah?” he would ask of me. “I haven’t seen you in ages. What’s going on in your life? I’m in med school at the University of Alberta.” This is like every girl’s dream, to meet a guy like this, good looking, has friends, has as a loving family and is on his way to a leading profession, taking care of people like this. Every girl’s dream. It seemed so surreal, like this is not happening, like it will never happen for me, but there I was listening to him speak. He kept touching his shoulders, and I asked him if he hurt his shoulder. “I dislocated it as I was playing ultimate frisbee” I explained what I was doing in Edmonton, to which he would say, … This is the thing that this story has changed about me I used to hide all my feelings I never stand up for myself I was a lone wolf that always kept to myself and I am greatly indebted to him for allowing me to break out of my shell and leaving me that day. You say why would you be thankful for a man leaving you, your father ridiculing you, hearing day after day, “you poor girl” and all I know is that i never felt alone and like I was doing this for no purpose. It is so important in our society for women to stand up for themselves. We are shunned, still not able to speak what is on our mind, and to do it still keeps our adrenaline moving as well. This begs the question why do we do this? What is forcing us to remain quiet, think that we don’t have the right to speak up? Some women find this easier to do and now we have learned how important it I to say what’s on your mind – you never know when you or someone else might need to in their life.