final chapter

Starbucks guy ok so i had finished work one day, and typed up my own article to be submitted that evening, and I was seeing that same guy in the coffee shop that I had seen before, I walked by him and sat down in the table and chairs beside him. Wearing a velvet jacket and dark jeans, his hair slicked back and looking like the hunk I always see in him, he started talking. Next thing I knew, he had noticed me a few times too and wondered what I was up to in New York. “I am a lawyer in town and this is our very busy season and so I just like to sit down and work here at Starbucks. You? What are you up to these days?” Now that I had his attention, I knew I had to flaunt everything that I could to impress him. “I’m a journalist just starting out with the Daily News.” “And what kinds of topics do you write? I think that’s awesome!” “Im mainly in charge of Arts and Entertainment. I recently wrote an article about the Santa Clause parade earlier in the season. I thought it was only fitting to write about our fascination with the Santa Clause parade for our kids. I know it’s fun for the adults too, they get to go ice skating on the rink, grab some treats and prizes, there's also a seat with Santa for the kids, but all of this would be nothing without the kids, its really all for the kids.” “That’s excellent, yeah, everyone knows that and would agree with you. It’s a good reminder though to put things into perspective and remind us the true reason of the season is celebrating our children and making them feel special. It’s all about family. Because I mean, gifts are great, and ugly sweater Christmas parties, eating and drinking to Christmas themes and all, but truly having quality time with family and in this case, especially with children, they are the ones who really need to feel love this Christmas." “Yes, I agree, and it’s not like I think there's something wrong with giving gifts and wearing christmas attire for the season, but I just wanted to celebrate the children even if its with material things, I think they can sense love in every little crack that comes their way and so celebrating via a trip to see Santa and go skating, goes along way for these children. We should care for their needs as well as ours. Nothing wrong with gifts, just invest in it in the right way.” “Wow, that’s profound. I never thought of it that way. Thanks for sharing that with me. But hey I should be going, I have a meeting to be at soon. Im sure ill see you around.” “Oh ya, see you again," I said. Anyway, that was short-lived. I was probably babbling for too long, I feel like. Anyways, I always speak my mind and I guess he didn’t like it. “But oh well,” I thought, “there’s many fish in the sea." A man of taste and prestige can make a woman fall so deeply In love with him. Maybe he really did need to rush and didn’t have time to get his number. Or maybe there’s another woman. Or he just genuinely did not care.” And on and on do women like me think about a man that leaves her that she so deeply desires. Next day at work Sitting next to Sabrina, I couldn’t help but tell her what I was up to yesturday, instead of dealing with that awful friend of mine who is always criticizing my times with men. I mean, who’s perfect, right?! I noticed she wasn’t doing anything at the moment in her cubicle. So I continued, “How are you doing Sabrina?” To which she replied, “oh im great, had a great weekend. I just cant seem to get motivated today." “Me neither,” I said, and off I went talking about highly accomplished men who are sweet and loving. Now that is a truth everybody knows. “So do tell, Sarah, don’t leave me hooked. I want to know details.” “Well theres not much to know because it seems that he’s not interested.” “Not interested? How would you know just by one interaction? Give it time girl, it doesn’t come easily. Men are complicated little wrecks that are too scared to ask sometimes and if there’s not another woman, you are fair game. As she went on and on about this, I was just going mmhm and mmhm as she went off talking about it all. I was thinking that this conversation was the polar opposite of the lady upstairs telling me to dump men that “lead me on with nothing left to give you.” I know i read into things too much at times, so I just didn’t know at first if I should believe in him. Maybe there is something there that I just don’t see yet. At least I don’t have production up there going down my throat for what I have to be careful of with men. I think I’m alright, thank you. Going home When it was time to leave work that day, I was still going home without any answers, without a clear conscience. There was just no middle ground in my head. I know I shouldn’t live for people’s opinions. But here before me was a man that is just leading me on or more like what Sabrina said and is genuinely interested and just not ready, it’s not the right time. “Think positive,” she said at the end, “That is the only way to find a man in this world. They run away from negativity or from a threat of some kind." And just then as I was walking home from Starbucks to my apartment, I saw him. No, not the guy I just met yesturday, but John. “What am I to do?” I asked myself. “It’s over between us, what would he be doing here?” And as I turned the other way to put my phone in my pocket, he was out of sight! THE END. Book 1.